adjusting

I want to be unique and different, to have great stories to tell. Stories not like everyone else's. But I think my stories will sound familiar for a while. They're the stories of a recovering addict. Same theme, same notes. The only thing different is this time it's me.

Yesterday I decided not to use both food and media at the same time. Today I realized that there's going to be some withdrawal.

Right now I hate food. I resent it for not making me feel as good as it did before. I feel the sugar hit my blood and it makes me angry, because I want to get doped up. But I'm not getting high, I'm just getting fed. I recognize that it's healthier this way, but I'm still pissed off about it.

And so goes day one.

I'm very thankful that today there were people in my life who hugged me.