oh, there He is

Last Sunday I had a knock-down drag-out with my old foe Depression, and I took quite a beating. He's haunted me all week, mostly with the question "Where did God go?" and "How can you trust Him when He's not taking care of you?"

Since I've been very cognizant of the depression this week, I've been able to reach out for help. Many thanks to those of you who talked with me, prayed with me, encouraged me, hugged me, and/or decided to love me despite the fact that I've been crazy and irrational. I appreciate you.

I've been falling apart, unable to handle anything, and not wanting to try. I spent at least three days holed up in my room, accomplishing next to nothing. Yet there were times this week that I had to be strong, when people needed me to speak truth, pray with authority, and be a spiritual leader. I found that depression wasn't able to steal away my core of faith. In the midst of the darkness, God showed me that my belief in Him has grown and convinced me that it can never be stolen away.

Tonight I figured out where God is. He showed himself again, and I'm prostrate, tears-in-my-eyes grateful. I doubt that this will be the end of the short- or long-term battle with depression, but with the eyes of my heart open to God's guardianship of me I am no longer afraid of the battle.

Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost... As it was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end. Amen.

Amen.